year 2009

year 2009, its nothing happen on me for now on, still the same , everyday working , sleeping ,playing like usuall. n this year i start my night life to pub.. its only on saturday night.. n i was broke up wif the previous bf , its no reason that i can tell to, i juz only can said we broke bcoz we r not suitable for each other, so im not sad bcoz i lost im happy bcoz i giv up... this is the good news for me .. bcoz i don need to suffer anymore...ladies n gentlemen, i have a news to tell u , please read carefully, i got my third partner now.. haha.. don be frighten... this is a common thg that will happen on everyone.. the suit one appear u must catch him/her... this is wat i can tell ... for now on i think he is suitable for me... but i donno few years later or future is it still maintain the same?? i have no answer for this. he is leaving soon on nx monday night to kk work,so i will be alone again start on nx tuesday , i though i found my happiness,i though my stories juz begin, who knws it is a long distance love between us, i juz only can tell the truth, i have not much confidence on this.. if u request a question on me , i oso cant giv u a proper answer ,bcoz this is my feel... mayb everythg can chg due to the time, environment & situation. ya, i never disagree bout it mayb wont chg,but the percentage is too low that i met it... juz let it be... this is wat i can do...

the 2nd thg that happen on me , i have feed a dog name doll doll, is a girl.. very playful ,very cutie dog.. it brg a lot of fun to us... unluckily it was dead on 2nd of june... i was so sad that it left us..it juz 4 mths old... so miss my doll doll, every action that it done b4.. i will never forget it ...

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recently

quite a long time no update my blog~ since i came back from singapore,i don have my own pc ,juz can online for short while. recently im damn busy at work ,bcoz the purchase order come to me continuos~~argh!!!! so scary ar ...every morning till evening ,the phone keep on ringing , the customers keep on fax me the PO, n our company have not yet hire a new staff for sales dept..oh my god...everyday i live in a pressure environment,keep doing the work faster n faster...sometimes even went to toilet pangsai oso knt.my sai don even come out smoothly . our job is very easy ,but it is quite alot to do.. my heart beating slowly these day ,so tired..but our colleagues are so playful... very tired now... gonna off9 n laying on my bed ...

Friendship in ur eyes? Or totally we r nothing in ur eyes?

屎，的确没有人敢踩，不过你并不是屎。我们也并没有踩你，而是重视我们彼此的友谊。约你出来是在乎你这个朋友，不过试问你自己，你可曾认真想过﹖﹖how many times u reject our invites? how many times u give us those rubbish excuse? how many times u release aeroplane? if u really don wanna hang out wif us juz tell out , don owes find an excuse. we very appreciate every moment wif u , y u owes gv us not reasonable excuses?? is bcoz one room not enauf to sleep? so that u don wan go the trip? it is not big deal man !! we can book another room for u to sleep ... did u discuss wif us about this problem b4 u said u don wanna go? is u promise to go , heard that u oso is the trip organizer. n now our plan ,our experted trip spoilt. not because of u ?? i donno y everytime invite u gals is a very difficult thg ? i donno wat we suppose to do on our friendship again? i owes said invite u gals more "qi cham" than "chia shing"!!! i donno isit hang out wif us is equal to waste ur time?? this answer juz u gals knw...... ask ur heart , ur deepest heart,wat we r now?? experted excited become disappointed ...

在新加坡的最后一夜

现在是凌晨十分，心情七上八下地，从星期六开始，并没有很期待回家去。不懂为什么。可能是舍不得姐姐吧。我们查不多有八九年没注一起。从我搬来新加坡我们住在一起差不多有半年把。星期日那天我们帮哥哥庆生，就去易安城吃火锅。没什么特别，价钱却非常特别，是特别的贵....星期一的晚上，就是刚过去的一天，姐姐带我去夜间动物园，好兴奋，也很开心。。 我看了动物表演。。 也看到了很多动物。。。感觉不错啦。。。哈哈。。谢谢姐姐请我去看动物。。我的东西还没整理完。很懒惰。明天就要离开了嘞，到现在还赖着不动身。。。我有点不舍得这里。。好像是开始爱上孤独的生活。。。也开始习惯看到大姐了。。。嗨。。不要紧拉，我看一个月时间就可以习惯了。。。回去不懂又会发生什么事了。。。唉~~~ 易安城吃火锅。 夜间动物园 易安城吃火锅。

〈好久没有发生这种事情了〉

超干的！我昨天下午睡醒就喝杯咖啡，好久好久没喝了。我姐他们都说很好喝。所以昨天拿一包来试试看。。。结果嘞，我胃痛，到了晚上精力旺盛，怎么样也不想睡。。。我还跟美星说我喝了咖啡不会不睡的。。结果嘞，我今天早上七点才睡着。。。还是我死都要逼自己睡觉。。今天睡到午时两点半。。。做了一场虚惊梦。。梦见了我的宝贝要离开我。。梦见那时已经是晚上十点多，然后他凌晨两点钟要离我而去，从此阴阳相隔。那时的心情好伤心，好紧张，好沮丧，只剩下大概三个小时多，就要从次分离，那时的心情我无法用词语来表达，我也不懂那么短时间内能跟他怎么相处，满脑子都是他要离开的画面，在梦里我只能用我的双手擦着他眼眸上流下来的泪水，而我的心灵之窗也不停地流马尿。。发觉原来他是我的生活上的一部分了，原来我已经习惯这个人了，原来他会影响到我的心情的起伏。原来我不知道的东西现在也知道了。。。当我梦醒时分我好开心，好庆幸还能看到他发给我的简讯。。。想当年我梦见爸爸也要与我分离，我醒来坐在床角旁就哭了三个小时。。不敢再睡着，怕那个画面会再出现。。我好怕失去爸爸，家人和我的宝贝。。没有任何痛苦是与心爱的家人做死永别分离。。我宁愿我自己可以比他们先离开，我希望家人宝贝宝贝家人朋友都健康。。因为我二度送朋友上山我真得无法忘记那种伤痛。。。我时时刻刻都害怕身旁的人离我而去，因为人的生命比心灵还要脆弱。。好多次我都活在毫无心理准备之下接受朋友离开的事实。我不想再这样了。。我多么希望再也没有这样的心情。。。所以我的亲爱的家人，宝贝，朋友，请好好保护爱惜自己，健康饮食都很重要。我爱你们。。

friday 21/03/08

friday ,easter day, a public holiday... me n debbie went to sentosa , a bit dissapointed , it was not like wat i expected , we went to underwaterworld n dolphin lagoon , the underwaterworld not fun one , quite small the place , n so crowded... after went to sentosa we went to dinner at vivo city , is my first time to vivocity .... then i accompany jy to her house to take her thg , then we went to my house, haha she stay over night at my house..abit bu xi guan bcoz too long time i slp alone... so worry i slp got 打呼，让她听到。。。 below are the conversation btw jy n me...
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khai ing : 唱 K 要多少钱？
jy : 坐巴士二十多， 飞机比较贵， 坐船应该二十多。。
khai ing : owh (一头雾水)
few minutes ask one more time the same question.....

凯音： 唱 K 坐船？
洁莹：啊？我以为你说去KL要多少钱。。。
凯音 : .........


when waliking back to my house....
洁莹　：　我觉得有几百个人看过我的屁股洞了。eh不是，是我的股沟。（因为裤子太松了）
khai ing : (破口大笑)

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today is monday ... i came here for omost a month ... but seems my luck is not very good ... until now i still can get a good job wif good environment of work place~ n feel like very stress in my deepest heart , in a normal life (when i wake up n have very fresh mind) i don feel the stress is appearing.. but when i was closing my eyes , preparing for dream , my mind was very messy .. i can't even sleep very well... sometime will wake up during midnight .... or will wake up in the early morning~ i never felt this before when i was in kuching ... mayb once a person grown up , stress will come automatically. i wish i can get a new job as fast as possible ... n go bck to kuching nx year... i don wan stay here alone .........

舍不得，无奈何

星期一刚抵新加坡，心里真的很不愿意上飞机。。好想就这么让飞机走掉算了。。可是我知道自己不能这么做。。因为我还得养活我自己。真的很舍不得这二十天在古晋有美食佳肴,家人和朋友男朋友的陪伴。何时再有这么地二十来天呢?少了家人的欢笑,少了男朋友的废话,来到这里打开房间门,冷冷清清,看着这个冷清的房间就想到,到底要在这里“修炼”多久才能重见家人男友和朋友?那种无聊、寂寞只有游子才能体会。每天对着四面白墙,有苦向谁诉。没有爸爸在身边的日子,就像没有军师一样,随时都会打败战。社会如战场。而且没有他的日子过得特别慢。虽然偶尔闹得不愉快。毕竟我有什么不高兴还可以大声地告诉他,或是把他当沙包痛快地打一场。现在寂寞随着我到处流浪。我的灵魂好像魂不附体似地到了它想去的地方。这样的日子好辛苦。所以我常常告诉自己,让我待在新加坡的力量来自于[钱]!!除了它我再也无法找到支撑我的支点。钱可以让我快乐,也因为它,我失去了我决定留在古晋的自由,失去了陪伴家人和男友和朋友的日子。我希望我工作顺利,快快给我拼了两年的时间。再做我爱的事物。有期望日子会快过一些。。。〈完〉 Happy Chap GoH Meh ... n Also congratulate to myself i got a new job today ... hope this company is a gd company wif a gd colleagues n gd environment....

2008 the first soi thg happened on me

first i have to congratulate myself i have been terminated last week. congratulate bcoz i don nid to work at that sucks company again , n no nid to c the china gal sucker face , n no nid to c the lady boss fucker face... but i get one trouble .... I HAVE TO PAY INCOME TAX!!!!!!!!!!!! bull the shit!! sgpore is a sucks place that sucking our blood... do u knw how much INCOME TAX i tiok bo??? deng deng deng deng ... is $510 !!! not Riggit Malaysia!!! is Sing dollar!!! f*ck!!! Really make me cant stop scolding F*ck!! n whole my salary on this month will hold by the fucker sucker lady boss which they call mdm until the income tax letter send to that cibei company!!!! terminate worker without reason n the fucker so rude u knw? she never past the letter to me , she juz put on my table without saying anythg !!!! u say she cibei o not? first time i met this problem !! i never knw that sg ppl n china gal so sucks one!!!now i very hate china ppl !! really kiasu than sgporean!!! i hate China Gal!!! my colleague said ask her stand at geylang do chicken business better so kiasu !!!! nx time i won so stupid !!! never ever again!!!!nextime i wan fire ppl don even gv the chance to other to fire me first!! now omost cny get the financial problem u say Kao o not!!! soi chin!!! donno wats wrg wif my luck these day!!! n oso im sick! my mouth painful , sometime teeth painful!! kanasai !! n sometime lao sai !! stomache chin!!! sien !!! hope that cny my luck will turn gd!!!

为什么女人这么地恶毒??

今天我听说,那中国来的女同事,一直在人后数我的不是。就是一直无中生有,我不懂我得罪她什么。我不懂为什么有如此毒辣的中国女人。年纪经经就像个臭三八。一直到处告诉人我没工作做。她自己却整天吵著她自己有多忙。既然很忙就不要多管闲事,整天打小报告呀。在人前她装忙,其实她才是大懒蛇,整天报告赶不出来,却说她有太多工作要做。如果她能今日事今日毕,怎么会做不完?整天好管闲事,在老板娘前说我玩MSN,自己还不是跟那个Site office的胖妞玩MSN,借意说要借着MSN发送公司文件给对方,其实里面都写满了八卦,和数人家的不是。每次说很忙,电话来电还不是在那说闲话。那天我的男友发信息给我,我却没回应,过后他打来,问我干什么不回应,我只说我很忙在工作而已,今天那中国妹就跟人家说我那天不懂跟谁讲电话,讲了那么大声我很忙。拜托,我男友听不到我讲大声一点,她是老板娘吗?那么敏感。工作时间不说忙挂电话,难不成要像她那样在那闲谈吗?只要稍有智慧的人都懂我的用意。她的作风就是,在你面前装个好人,在你背后捅你捅到遍体鳞伤。在老板娘面前捅我们,在我们面前就拼命捅老板娘。像那天她说:“唉,明天元旦,每家公司做半天,我们公司得做一整天”。其实我知道她想等我说下去,好让她能在老板娘面前借题发挥。顺便借着别人的名誉来帮她说出心地话。可惜我只静静地买我的午餐。她那烂招术,我关着眼睛都懂。她每天会无薪加班到很迟,目的就只是演一场好戏给天真的人们看。既然她每天都加班不可能她的工作不能如期完成吧?这点有脑子的人都懂吧??而且我只不过想把白纸拿来打洞,这工作我又不是不会做,既然她每天嚷着很忙,就让我做,她也该去做她的报告吧!不要一直拿别的同事来做借口。说人家很闲空没事干。既然我帮你,你又不让我帮,是不是摆明我注定就是你要说三倒四的对象啊?好让你这毒三八有故事说给天真的人儿听呗?不要以为我不说就代表我不懂你一的烂招术!!!保持沉默的人最后才是胜利者。而你最后只会是牺牲品。正所谓:“色即是空,空即是色。”色和空这两个字能颠到成一句,就如你害人最终还是害自己。就如物理学上的反射定律。在一个无崎平面上，和一条法线上，你射出去的光线是多少，站在另一旁的你以为能等待着看一场好戏，最后也同样受到一样的对待。。因为平面和法线是公平的。。。